Jake Johnson recently opened up about the profound effect that the suicide of his close friend, filmmaker Jeff Baena, had on him. During an appearance on Dax Shepard’s “Armchair Expert” podcast, Johnson expressed his feelings of anger and grief, stating, “I’m really mad at him.” Baena, who was married to actress Aubrey Plaza, passed away earlier this year at the age of 47, leaving a significant impact on those who knew him. Johnson shared a heartfelt tribute on social media soon after the news broke, writing, “I love you Jeff. Hate your last move. But I still love you.”
The loss has led Johnson to make changes in his life, including stepping away from hiking, a shared passion with Baena that now evokes bittersweet memories. “When I come to this neighborhood, I’m a little bit like, ‘Yeah, the f***ing guy’s dead,’” he acknowledged, reflecting on the deep emotional toll Baena’s passing has had on him.
Johnson also spoke about his experience delivering the eulogy at Baena’s funeral, revealing the initial hesitations he faced. Despite his worries about speaking in front of unfamiliar faces, he ultimately recognized the importance of honoring his friend and processed his grief through this act. He explained that he intended to “challenge” Baena in a way, hoping to feel his presence in the moment.
Their friendship was marked by lively debates and a deep connection, marked by Johnson’s recollection of their first meeting when Baena declared, “We’re going to be old men together.” Now, in Baena’s absence, Johnson finds himself reminiscing and wishing for unresolved conversations.
In a poignant revelation, Johnson admitted he frequently talks to Baena in his dreams, requesting his friend to watch over his twin daughters. He also candidly expressed regrets following the timing of Baena’s death, as he had turned down a hiking invitation with him shortly before he passed away, believing that perhaps a simple outing could have changed the outcome.
Ultimately, Johnson reminded listeners that while he carries feelings of regret, each person’s experience with loss is unique. He emphasized that his reflections are specific to his relationship with Baena and not a blanket statement about others’ experiences.
For those who may be struggling or know someone who is, the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline is available at 1-800-273-TALK (8255), providing support for anyone in emotional distress.